funship times

so today im babysitting 2 handsome lads and a beautiful little baby girl ,
and 2 gawjus doggys,
the kidlets r fast asleep  and the dogs r sitting on my lap.
i love to babysitt other peoples kids it always cheers me up and makes me realise that maybe my kids arnt as annoying if i get some space from them .
i also went to visit my pregnant friend today and maybe im a little jealous that i havent got pregnant.
i really am getting desperate for a baby , although im hiding it well , even though when i see a pregnant woman i burst into tears later on .
i guess the hormones and ticking internal clock have finally driven me crazy.
ok so heres a question my friends, is there a real tried and tested way too find out who really is ure friend and who isnt as i have found out recently there really isnt anyway to be sure.
oh well
i guess life will always move on no matter what !
although my brain is a little overaught with baby's and friendships im still loving life, i take every day at a time and make a point of finding a way too smile no matter how hard it seems to be to find a silver lining.
so through all the slight jealousy and anger towards those who have let me down today.
the silver lining is *my kids sense of humour * :) and guess what they get it from me hahahaha

american adventures

so i have moved  to america , yes all those who know me will know how very strange that is , i find most social situations difficult and i dont actually get along with many people.
so America was definately a difficult decision, i had my choice of friends in england , and i could hide away when i felt like it without anyone thinking i was weird.
so finally i have managed to find a way too write blogs about it.
i love to write its what i have done all my life and as a published author its a way to tell you what really goe's on in my head well maybe a little :)
so yes in march i will have been in the lovely south dakota for a year, and in that year WOW at how many things have changed for this hermit type english chick ....i have gone from being a cat lady too having three dogs, two daschunds and a border collie, i love them soooo much i dont know how i ever became a cat person lol i love to walk.
i have lost 13 pounds probably from all the running and walking i do now , theres so many openspaces to explore im in Gods heaven on earth it's so beautiful here.
i have experienced 100 F and -50 F both very starnge and almost breathtaking lol.
i've had my first wedding anniversary, never thought i'd get married let alone for a year.
my step son has been diagnozed with autism and my son has been diagnosed with adhd both very hard pills to swallow but we are all working hard to make life easier for them ,us and those around them.
i have found myself with a wide variety of friends and a social life, this i thought i'd never say I LOVE being out with my friends.
im going to learn to drive cannot wait for that, and i've decided to become a us citizen instead of going back to the uk , im going back as a friend of the uk rather than belonging to it, i feel i belong to the usa and have done for years i just didnt know it yet .
people in england now i look back on them i miss them but they are all different now , theres a few that will always remain the same but they've all moved on with there lives without me and im powerfully glad about that, they made me able to adapt to america i just didnt know how well they had done it until now, im eternally grateful for this.
so yeah the kids are flying through school , the dogs are hating the winter, hubbys doing good at work and me well im flying!!! :) love ya all chat soon xoxo